Lindsey's Blog

Friday, January 26, 2007

Goodbye

So, I haven't written in a while, and I laughed to myself just now when I discovered that for the past few months, a reference to getting the Washington Monument up the butt has been at the top of my blog.

Anyway, as you've probably guessed, I'm just not into writing anymore. There are a lot better blogs out there, and I would just rather be reading those than writing my own. I don't really think I'm good at writing anything other than term papers.

If I think of it, I'll post some links to some good blogs when I have time.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Best Sentence Ever Uttered at Work

"Are you comfortable with this?"

"Would I be comfortable with the Washington Monument up my ass? Because that's how I feel right now."

And no, I'm not the one who said it.

Monday, September 18, 2006

The Breakup

I'm sorry I haven't blogged in awhile. It has come from a combination of being busy and a little sad. Last Sunday Brandon and I broke up. We had been together for almost 3 1/2 years, and though we still love and care about each other, we were really more like best friends than boyfriend and girlfriend. There are a million details about the relationship and breakup that I could analyze here, but I'm not really interested in doing that. The main things is, you can be really compatible with someone as friends, and love them, and want to spend almost all of your time with them, but that doesn't mean you should be their girlfriend. I can't really explain what happened, but we both know that this if for the best. Eventually, we'll both be happier. We're still hanging out and talking on the phone, though obviously not as much. It's awkward and sad and frustrating sometimes, but all in all good to be hanging out just as friends.
It is weird when you breakup, because you want to tell people, but you don't want to announce it. It is kind of awkward. So, I told my mom and a few friends and co-workers, and I mention it if it comes up in conversation, and I figure that is enough to have it spread to other people. Everyone loves gossip!
I have been hoping, in this turning point, that I will really get a grip on life, finally get organized and feel on top of it. I mean, I always get my stuff done, and usually fairly well, but usually with undo stress caused by a combination of procrastination and overly high expectations. I want to avoid most of that stuff now, if possible. But so far, it hasn't happened. If anything, things are in more disarray than ever. But that is to be expected in the first week after the end of a major relationship. And my new addiction to Kakuro (possibly even better than Su Doku) is doing nothing to help. Nor the sore throat I have suddenly developed. But, I have made a comprehensive to-do list, which all list-makers know is the first step to enacting any plan. Now that that all-important step is out of the way, I am certain that I can start being happier, having less stress, getting enough sleep, exercising more, eathing healthier, and being more productive. Right.

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

And the Fun Never Stops

I am very tired from all the traveling I've done in the last few days, but it I had such a good time it's worth it. Late Thursday night I got back from McLean, VA, where I was working last week.
On Friday Brandon and I drove up to my parents house, in the western Chicago suburbs. Saturday morning we all went up to Wisconsin, to visit my grandparents. We played with the dogs and my cousins' little kids, went boating, played dice and "hillbilly golf," witnessed some of the worst karaoke of our lives, and ate lots of my grandma's homecooked food. It was so fun. I love going to visit them. Sunday afternoon Brandon, my brother, the dog, and I all piled into my car and headed back to Illinois, to my brother's house for a night of drinking, hanging out, and playing video games. Also, sleeping on the floor--woo! Monday morning we left my brother's and headed back to Indianapolis, for lunch at Brandon's mom's. We had more homecooked food, visited, played with the dogs, jumped on the trampoline, and played croquet, which I won.
Then finally on Sunday night, tired, full, and happy, we headed back home. We relaxed and cuddled with kitty, and everything was wonderful. But my body must've broken down from the exhaustion, because I suddenly had a terrible stomache, and urinary tract infection, and a cold all at once. It was awesome! And the pill cocktail was delicious!
This morning I woke up very tired, and very crappy feeling. But, I ate a good breakfast, have eaten healthy all day, drank tons of water, and taken lots of generic Airborne, so I'm not feeling too terrible. But the best thing is is that tonite, Brandon, who also has a cold, is going to go running with me (exercise always makes me feel better when I have a cold), and then we are going to watch a movie. Yay--relaxation! At home! Being home is so good after being away, especially if you are sick. I can't wait!

In Case You Were Wondering

I used to get these emailed to me all the time when everyone first started using the internet for fun and socializing. I haven't gotten one in awhile, but my friend Karen sent me one last week.

Here I have posted my answers, because I know you are dying to know about my favorite color, or what I usually have for breakfast!

1. What time did you get up this morning? 8 am—overslept!
2. Diamonds or pearls? They are both pretty bad when you think about where they come from and how they are acquired. But, I do like family diamonds that get passed on from generation to generation--they are special.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?: Beerfest—hilarious!
4. What is your favorite TV show? Curb Your Enthusiasm
5. What do you usually have for breakfast? Usually something unhealthy, but I’m trying to change that—this morning I had a fruit and soymilk shake for breakfast
6. Favorite Food? Too many to name—I love food!
7. What is your middle name? Rose
8. What food do you dislike? Meat!
9. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Ziggy Stardust by David Bowie
10. What kind of car do you drive? Chevy Cavalier
11. Favorite sandwich? Veggie burger (esp. with avocado!)
12. What characteristic do you despise? Self-centeredness
13. Favorite item(s) of clothing? My tan corduroy skirt
14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would it be? It’s hard to choose—tour of Europe would be cool
15. What color is your bathroom? Green and tan
16. Favorite brand of clothing? Silver jeans
17. Where would you retire to? If I were a extra rich, I would have houses across the US and Europe
18. What was your most memorable birthday? I have 2—Gospel Brunch at the House of Blues in Chicago for my 18th b-day; The Vid in Bloomington, and hanging out afterwards for my 22nd b-day.
19. What is your favorite sport to watch? I only like to watch sports live—esp. basketball, hockey, or anything outside on a nice day
23. Favorite saying? I don’t know2
4. When is your birthday? March 19
25. Are you a morning person or a night person? Night
26. What is your shoe size? 10
27. Pets: Dog and cat
28. What did you want to be when you were little? Actress, vet, surgeon, teacher
29. How are you today? I have a cold!
30. What is your favorite candy? Dark chocolate, taffy
31. What time is it? 11:25
32. NAME: Lindsey
33. Piercings: I’ve had my body pierced 10 times; I don’t have any of them anymore
34. What is your favorite game? I love almost all games—board games, sports (even though I am really bad); I like to play 20 Questions because all you need are 2 people and no equipment.
35. Place of Birth: St. Charles, IL
37. Ever been toilet papering? Yes
38. Love someone so much it made you cry: Yes
39. Been in a car accident: Yes—minor fender benders, never anything serious
40. Croutons or bacon bits: Croutons
41. Favorite day of the week: Saturday
42. Favorite Restaurant: The Turquauz Café in Bloomington, Maggiano’s, PF Chang’s
43. Favorite Flower: I’m not sure; I like lots of flowers
44. Favorite Drink: Non-alcoholic—Water, Dr. Pepper; Alcoholic—Vodka and Cranberry w/ Lime, Corona w/ Lime
45. Favorite ice cream: Berry sorbet
46. Disney or Warner Brothers: Can’t it be both?
47. Favorite fast food restaurant: I don’t eat much fast food, but I do like Arby’s curly fries
48. What color is your bedroom carpet: white—I hate carpet, yuck! Wood floors are the way to go.
50. What do you do most often when you are bored: Watch a movie
51. Bedtime: If only I had a regular bedtime during the week! Sometime between 10:30 and 1
52. Last person you went to dinner with: Brandon
53. Ford or Chevy: Chevy
54. What is your favorite color: Green
55. How many tattoos do you have: Two, or one, depending on how you count it—2 small ones next to each other that I got at the same time
56. Which came first - the Chicken or the Egg? Who knows…
57. How many bones have you broken? None
58. Ski or Snowboard? I’m not really a snow person; it’s more something I put up with so that I can enjoy spring and fall; if I had to choose, snowboarding
59. Hawaii or Mexico? Mexico, just because I don’t really remember going there very well and I’d like to see it
60. Do you like Country music? Every once in awhile I listen to Shania Twain, and I like to listen to Johnny Cash sometimes too, but for the most part, no.

Monday, August 28, 2006

Sometimes, I just can't think of a title that aptly describes what I'm talking about in this post

Hey everyone, you may have noticed that all the links have been removed from my blog. You see, I eventually messed them up so badly, I just ended up resetting the template. Now I have to add my links back in. I'm going to do it a bit differently this time. Before I had links to most of my favorite websites, but I don't really need to do this. Like, I can link to the ASPCA because I love it, but most people have heard of the ASPCA, and if they wanted to go to their site, they'd just google it. So, over the week I'll be adding cool links back in, but only to other blogs and sites you might not have heard of before.

I have recently started reading several newspapers online. Usually I get all of my news from NPR. This is a great source, but I realized that I really should mix it up a bit, so I started reading lots of different papers. Whenever I need a little break from work I read the headlines, and scan the articles that look interesting. Well, I just read about the plane crash in KY. Sounds pretty strange; I wonder what happened. I know that air travel is much safer than traveling by car, but I wish I'd stop hearing scary news reports about flying right before I'm about to get on a plane. I fly into Dulles tomorrow morning. At 6am--yes! Yes, I know, it's early, but it's a direct flight, and that's a rare thing when flying out of Indianapolis, so it's worth it!

Now let's distract ourselves from plane crashes with fun visual effects!

Monday, August 14, 2006

Flying

Last week I went to Irvine, CA for work. I fell asleep with the TV on on Wednesday night, and woke up on Thursday to the news about the foiled terrorist attacks. I got a little upset. I started crying. I knew that nothing would happen, but that is not the kind of news you want to hear the day you are going to get on a plane. I really love traveling for work. Except for being away from home after working hours, it is my favorite part of my job. But still, every once and awhile, it bums me out. I am really comfortable flying, but sometimes a little part of my brain asks, what if the plane goes down? And then I start to think about how much that would suck. I'd die for work. I'd die because I was on a plane because I was going to work. But then I tell myself that I might as well think that everyday when I drive to work, because that is more dangerous. And then I feel fine. But I felt a little sad all day Thursday as I finished up work, and then took a redeye from LAX to Atlanta to Indy. I wasn't really scared, and I didn't have any problems with my luggage, but I was in airports and on airplanes for several hours, and it seemed like anything could set me on edge. Like, I almost started crying when I saw an older lady get on a bus and she had to use the hand rails to pull herself up. It as weird. But worst of all were the simple-minded, violent, bigoted things near-strangers would say to me. Like "'they' are all immoral over 'there;' 'they' have no conscience. We should just go over 'there' and drop like 5 nuclear bombs" or "we should just build a wall around the whole area and let 'them' all kill each other." And I just wanted to say, who's the 'they' and where's the 'there?' Some brown people in some vague area of the Middle East? But I didn't say that, because I didn't want to be rude. And I was trying not to cry. I wish that these situations brought out the best in people, made us appreciate all life more, made us realize that the human beings have placed themselves in a precarious situation, and made us realize how much work we have to do. That does happen for some, but it seems like for a lot of people, these situations are an excuse for bigotry. Not only is that wrong, but it doesn't even make sense! It inflames the situation, and creates undue suffering. If bigoted beliefs convince us that racial and ethnic profiling is OK, terrorists will adapt and find fighters who don't meet that profile. They will always adapt. I'm sad and disgusted that any people want to kill anyone. I'm touched by those who make the sacrifices in these situations. And I'm saddened by the reactions I've seen. Especially saddened because not only do people think these nasty things, but also because they seem to think their feelings are so right, are so justified, are so American, that they can say these things to me, a fellow white American, and I will fiercely agree. I am American. I am patriotic. I accept anger and sadness and fear as normal reactions, but I reject hatred, bigotry, and violence. I still love the country.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Not Blogging

I love reading blogs. I have several that I check regularly. One of these is Julia Sweeney's blog. I found Julia's blog a few months ago, and quickly read all of the back entries. Well, suddenly in the middle of March, Julia stopped writing posts. Not a single word since March. Until finally yesterday I looked, not expecting anything, and I was shocked to see she had posted! Oh yay, I thought. Her long post recapped what she'd been so busy with, and what's coming up with her. It was all good, but by the end of the post I was feeling slightly annoyed. Never once did she say, oh sorry I haven't posted, I've been really busy. Or thank you everyone for all the nice comments that you left while waiting for 5 months. I mean, I would never do that to the two people who read my blog! And really, in all those 5 months I really doubt she didn't have a single spare minute to make a quick post to say, "I'm busy, I'll write later." I mean, blogging is about the writer and the readers. If you don't care about the readers, write in a journal, not a blog! I still love Julia, and will continue to read her blog, but I'm still annoyed. I tried telling Brandon about this, but he doesn't get it. He's not a blogger. Anyway, I'm getting ready to add links to some of the blogs I read--look for them over on the right-hand side. I'm looking for new blogs to read too...let me know your favorites and I'll check them out!

**OK, I just added links to the blogs I read, but I didn't put them all in the right place and the right side of my blog is kind of messed up right now. I don't have time to fix it now, so it'll just have to stay that way for a little bit!

Mystery Recipe

Over the weekend I went to a co-worker's wedding--so fun! I love weddings, or more specifically, I love receptions. Now I am back at work for my one day in the office this week before I head out to CA to do some training. When I got to work this morning, there was a recipe card sitting on my desk. It doesn't say who it is from, and their was no accompanying note. I asked a couple of people if the recipe was from them, and they said no. I can't really figure out who this recipe is from. The weirdest part, it calls for meat, which I think everyone knows I don't eat. Maybe I'll try making it with tofu. Strange.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

3 o' Clock

I am really lucky with my work schedule. We have "flex time" instead of specific hours that we need to work. People in my department generally come in between 6:30 and 9:30am. I am a 9am person, but I am making a new goal to became a 7am person. You see, if you are a 7am person, you can work through lunch and leave at 3, or go out for lunch and leave at 4. I would love to do that, because it seems that everyday at about 3pm I hit a wall. It doesn't matter what time a come in. This morning I had to drive down to Indy for some Outreach Committee errands. This was for work, but I didn't actually start working until I got to the office at 9:45am. Despite the late start, it is 3:15 and I am struggling to go forward. The next few hours are going to drag. If only I were a 7am person, I would be getting ready to leave at this time most afternoons.

Monday, July 31, 2006

Brandon's New Job!

For the past several months, Brandon has been working at a video store, and looking for a "real job." Next Tuesday he starts that job, as a Management Trainee at a trucking company. While his job at "BallBuster" offered such perks as free movie rentals, this new job offers good pay and benefits, regular hours, and more opportunities to advance. Best of all, Brandon thinks he'll enjoy the position. I am so, so happy for him. Congratulations babe!

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Cicadas

Ahh...this weekend at home has been so nice and relaxing. I had two back-to-back trips for work, and have been gone the majority of the past two weeks. It is really nice to be home after that. It is so hot outside, so I've mostly just been hanging around the house. I live on the edge of a small woodsy area, and I can hear the cicadas humming even through the closed windows. Cicadas always make me think of the hottest, slowest part of summer. This is the time, when I was younger, that I would start to look forward to the start of the school year.
I went to school at IU, and in Bloomington, they don't just have the regular cicadas, they have 17-year cicadas. I was in Bloomington the summer before my senior year, and witnessed the coming of the 17-year cicadas. Normal cicadas live underground for a year, until summertime, when they emerge to mate, and then they die. 17-year cicadas don't come annually (duh) like regular cicadas, but appear only every 17 years. They are bigger and louder. When they emerge from the ground, they come in hoards. Walking through campus, where there a lot of trees, you had to raise your voice to carry on a conversation over the high-pitched droning. Imagine thousand of regular cicadas, then multiple the sound by 17. It was almost impossible to walk without stepping on them. At least a few cicadas would get in your house--very fun for the cat. You could also easily get cicadas in your car if driving with the windows down. My friend Rob had the bad fortune of getting two cicadas in his car--if you are a pizza delivery guy, it is not very fun to have those things buzzing at you for 8 or more hours at a time. If the 17-year cicadas did get in your car or house, you pretty much had to wait for them to die. You see, if you come near a 17-year cicada, it doesn't scurry away or try to hide, it jumps at your face. The cat was the only one who could handle these cicada attacks. Once all of the cicadas finally started to die, you would find their little carcasses on the sidewalk, stuck in your screens, everywhere. It was kind of gross, and they're insanely loud droning was kind of annoying, but I was glad that I got to witness the 17-year cicadas. How many people have gotten to see that?

Friday, July 28, 2006

Outrageous

Not only is it intolerant and horrible, but keeping gays out of the military is expensive. According to this AP article, it has cost the Pentagon nearly $369 million to discharge and replace gays in the military. Read the outrageous story of one of those people here, and see just how well Don't Ask Don't Tell is working. It's just plain crazy.

Help, I Don't Know How to Use a Computer

Because I am a software trainer, people often mistakenly think I know a lot about computers, including all software programs, writing code, etc. This actually could not be further from the truth. Many people who have known me for a long time, me included, were surprised when I got a job at a software company. Sure I can type with my fingers in the appropriate asdf jkl; position, I can use Word, and a little in Excel and PowerPoint, and I can navigate the internet. Other than that, pretty much everything I know about computers I learned at this job, most of it pertaining directly to my job and not computer use in general. For example, I am currently on an airplane. I really don’t know if or how I can use the internet while flying. This is extremely embarrassing to me. Right now I am connected to a “Peer-to-Peer” wireless connection. I really don’t know what this means. And though my computer says I have a connection, I can’t get on the internet. I don’t even know if I’m allowed to get on the internet on the plane, though I have seen other people do it. I am currently typing this in Word, and plan to copy and paste it into my blog later. If anyone out there knows about using the internet on a plane, you should tell me what to do. Don’t laugh at me, I can’t help it.

PS: I really am not bad at my job; I do actually know how to use the software I train on, and more importantly I know to teach other people to use it. Co-workers, if you are reading this, do not think I’m incompetent. Ha ha ha.

Friday, July 21, 2006

Strange Comments

Lately I have been getting spammed with blog comments like "Very best site. Keep working. Will return in the near future" and "Your are Excellent. And so is your site! Keep up the good work. Bookmarked." These odd comments from an anonymous source first appeared on my blog a few weeks ago. There were a few comments randomly spread across different entries. All of the entries were in the past, so I wouldn't have even noticed if I didn't get an email everytime someone leaves a comment. Skip ahead to this morning...I go to work, check my email, and see that some comments have been made on my blog. They are all these weird "complimentary" spam comments. I count the emails as I delete them--160! Very annoying way to start the day. Here's the thing I don't get, what is the point of this comment spam? They are not advertising anything, they don't contain links to other sites...is annoyance their sole purpose? Anyway, I have turned on word verification for comments to prevent future spam.

In other news, I had a very lovely trip to Harleysville, PA this week. It is a nice area--small towns scattered through farmland. Lots of trees, it was very pretty to drive through. The people at the bank were so nice, and the hotel had an outdoor pool. It was nice to go swimming during the heatwave that seems to be sweeping the entire country. On the way home I was supposed to have a layover in Atlanta, and then fly to Indy. Well my first flight was delayed, causing me to miss my connection, the last flight to Indy until morning. But, one of my high school friends lives in Atlanta, and picked me up at the airport. We haven't seen each other in a couple of years, so we went out all night, then he took me back to the airport and he went to class. It was so fun, and the best possible ending to missing my connection, but I am still not fully recovered from our all-night bender followed by uncomfortable plane ride. I'm glad it's the weekend soon.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Home Sick

Today I am sick. I have been sick since Sunday night. I am feeling better now, but up until late this afternoon I had a bad stomach ache. I missed work yesterday morning, and left today after about an hour, after throwing up my breakfast. It's always pleasant to puke in a public bathroom. I'm finally really feeling better now. I just finished dinner and I think I'm OK.

An even better story...
I keep all of my keys on a handy carabiner. This includes the two fobs I use at work, a key to my front door, to my garage, to my mailbox, and to my car. Yesterday I was going the bathroom, and I had my keys in my sweater pocket. I leaned over to flush. At the same instance the keys fell out of my pocket and disappeared from sight. A maintenance guy tried to rescue them, but they were gone forever. I had to tell this story to multiple people in order to get the maintenance guy to come out, and then to report my lost fobs. Everything thought it was quite hilarious.

My fobs were replaced, and I have spares of the others, so it wasn't a huge deal. Except for one thing; I had stupidly left the extra car key IN THE CAR! So I called my insurance company to come open my door. It was a great day of feeling extra stupid/queasy.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

2nd Day in the Office in Two Weeks

Oh blog, I haven't blogged in so long. Because I've been busy! Last week I went to Vermont for work. One day I went driving for an hour through Vermont and New Hampshire. It is so incredible. I definitely plan to go back! After my VT trip, I was back for a day, and then flew to Chicago to see my family. From there we drove up to Wisconsin to see my grandparents. It was a fun weekend of visits with family and high school friends. And I DROVE back from my parents house in my car!!! My younger brother bought a truck, so I bought his dark blue 2002 Chevy Cavalier. The funny thing is, I used to drive this car my senior year of high school. You know when people buy a used car and they say, "I got a new car; well it's not new, but it's new to me." But my "new" car isn't even new to me. Ha ha ha. I'm so happy to have a car though. It is just nice to be able to drive when you need to, and not have to always try to work around everyone's schedule.

Hope everyone had a good 4th of July.

Friday, June 23, 2006

I'm Getting a Shredder

You'll want to too, after you read this. Seriously read it, it's funny and informational, and from one of my favorite sites.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Movies

When I was in high school most weekends you could find me at the movies, or hanging out at Borders, or bowling or something like that. But when I went to college, those activities got mostly replaced with going to house parties and the bars. All are fun, but I'm trying to do more of that "high school" stuff now, especially going to the movies. I love seeing movies at the theatre. I think the whole experience is enhanced seeing it on a big screen, with blasting sound, surrounded by other people. For example, Jaws is a great movie. My brother and I used to rent it and watch it on the tiny TV he had in his room. And we loved it. Then in college I took a film studies class, and we were going to watch Jaws. We did a movie viewings in a large classroom that really was setup like a small movie theatre, including the big screen. A lot of the people in my class had never seen Jaws before, and it was so fun to be watching it in a group with people gasping and screaming. So in my book, going to the movies is way worth the extra cost. You have to smuggle in drinks and candy of course, but the ticket is worth it.
A few weeks ago I was looking at the upcoming movies on IMDb, and I was so excited. So many good summer movies! But so far, I've been kind of disappointed.
First Brandon and I saw The DaVinci Code. It was fine, and I really liked some parts of it. And I love Audrey Tatou. But I didn't leave the theatre thinking, Wow! And of course, like all movies that are based on a book, the book was better.
Next we went to see The Breakup. I admit, the was fully my idea, and Brandon did not want to go. Sure, I had read the bad reviews, but I still wanted to see it. Bad move on my part; it is not funny.
Then last night we went to go see Nacho Libre, a movie we were both looking forward to. It stars Jack Black, and looks pretty funny. Well, we were most definitely wrong. There are a few funny things that Jack Black does, but the story line is not good. It is not even funny in a stupid way. I didn't like the story. The more I think about it, the more I dislike it.
I hope I see something good soon, or I'm going to get discouraged from my resolution of going to see movies more often.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Weekend

Takin' a little break from work. I've got stuff planned pretty much non-stop from 10-4, so I thought I'd take a break now. I flew to my parents over the weekend, and we had a fun time celebrating my mom's birthday on Friday, and Father's Day on Sunday. Also had a grad party on Saturday. Busy weekend. It was so fun though. I love hanging out with my family. I flew home on Sunday night, and Brandon left his mom and stepdad's house to come get me. His stepbrother Travis had been visiting the fam as well; he came up to the house that night too. Then our friend Demus called, saying that he was on his way back from northern Indiana, and he wasn't too far away. He came over too! And I was like, Crazy! So weird how it just worked out that two of my good friends from college were in the neighborhood at the same time. We had so much fun, though we did have to drive around in the rain to find a bar. You see, I don't normally go out to the bars at 10pm on a Sunday anymore. This being a little suburb, and not a college town, it took us awhile to find something. It was so fun though. I miss college.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Time

Last night I re-watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, which is such a good movie! I loved it in the theatre and I still love it. Anyways, Kate Winlet's character says something about obsessing over not living life to the fullest, not taking advantage of the short amount of time that we have. And I thought Yes! Yes, that is how I feel so often. My life is generally so awesome, and I am so very lucky, yet I have many regrets. Regrets from every "era" of my life--college, high school, back until I can't remember anymore. And almost everyone of them is something I wish I should have done, some new experience I should have given myself. And just generally, I should have gone out more. It is so hard for me to get motivated to go out when I'm tired, or I feel ugly, or something stupid like that. And I decided I don't want to waste time doing things that aren't fun. And for five minutes I resolved that I would only do things that I was super enthusiastic about, that sounded like the funnest (most fun?) or most meaningful time ever. But then I realized, OK, that is not possible. Or even desirable. Like working isn't the best time ever, but there are things about it that are rewarding and enjoyable, and it enables me to have money so that I can do other fun things. Blogging isn't the best time ever, but it is something small that is fun. I like it. I don't want to stop doing it. Or volunteering. Every volunteer experience isn't going to be the most meaningful ever, but that doesn't mean I should volunteer less. So I decided instead to just try to do more things that are special and fun and meaningful and important, but they don't have to be the best ever. Also, I decided I miss acting a lot. Doing a show is not really possible with my job right now, but someday when I'm older I feel I will get back into it, and I need to be ready for that. And one last thought I had--what is the point of doing stuff that is bad for me, unless it is really worth it? Eating junk food is not fun enough to shorten my life over it. Ocassionally smoking isn't fun enough to shorten my life over it. Duh! So here are my summer resolutions:

1. Always be reading something--especially read more plays and more non-fiction

2. Get up and get ready everyday like something is going to happen; if nothing seems to be going on, find something to do

3. Plan more social stuff--I'm not talking just about big parties; I like having dinner parties, and I want movie night, and game night!

4. Go out to the theatre more often--live theatre and the movies

5. Get to know my town more, and find fun things to do here

7. Organize and streamline house/affairs so boring things like chores are done as quickly and as easily as possible

8. Only spend money on things that seem really worthwhile

9. Continue to exercise and eat healthily every single day

10. Get enough sleep during the week; don't oversleep on the weekends

11. Start volunteering outside of Community Outreach Committee at work

12. Find new hobby or learn something new...Spanish...guitar...sewing? I haven't decided yet.

13. Go to the pool more often--difficult resolution, I know. But seriously, the pool is the social center of my neighborhood, but I've only gone there once because I haven't made time to go and relax and hang out with my friends

14. Find cool stuff to do on every work trip


Well, I really wanted the list to be under 10, but that's not too bad. I'm seriously gonna check back soon and see how I'm doing.


Update: I am adding one more--15. Quit biting my nails! It is gross, and I probably look stupid with my hands in front of my face all the time--break out the nail polish!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Needing a Car

Awhile back I sold my car. I had been having problems with it, was annoyed with it, and also had no savings. So selling my car and getting this extra money seemed like a great idea. I arranged for carpooling to work, and it didn't seem like a big deal. Between my boyfriend, friends, and co-workers, I almost always have a ride. Most of my friends live in my neighborhood, and there is a Meijer within walking distance. I can even walk to work if I need to (albeit across a busy, busy street). I started flying to Chicago to see my parents instead of driving. Not that I was planning on being carless forever. I just wanted to save up a bit. I think I will get a car at the end of the summer. Though many people think it is so strange, not having a car is usually not a big deal. I carefully try not to constantly ask for rides, and sometimes I convince myself that I am hip and almost European in not having a car. But occasionally not having a car, living in an area with no public transportation, really sucks. Like right now. I am ready to go home from work. I want to take a shower and then go to a bar with my neighbors. But, the guy I ride with is in a meeting, and even if we leave in the next 5 minutes I won't have time to take a shower, and I might not even be able to catch a ride with my friends when they head to the bar. Oh yay, my ride's here! Ha ha ha. Bye!

Monday, June 12, 2006

Zoo

This weekend Brandon and I treated his almost 11-year old sister to a weekend of birthday fun. We didn't end up going to the World's Largest Water Balloon Fight, because it was cold and wet, and we were too busy doing other stuff. We went to the Indy Zoo and White River Gardens, and then to see Deep Sea 3D at the Imax theatre. The gardens are so beautiful, and there are so many! It would probably be really cool on a sunny day when there isn't a gallon of water in your shoes. And the 3D Imax movie was incredible! It was narrated by Kate Winslet and Johnny Depp, and was so cool and interesting. It costs the same as going to a regular movie. The show is not quite as long, but it so much cooler--totally worth it. Now the zoo, I'm not sure how I feel about the zoo. I like seeing the animals, and I think it can be a great educational place. I'm glad that endangered species can be kept safe and bred at zoos. But, at the same time, it seems to me, someone who is really not educated in animal behavior, that most of the animals just don't have enough room! Not that they are in really tiny cages, but when you think about the thousands of miles that many animals roam throughout the year, there is really no way a zoo can replicate that for all of the animals. I don't really know enough about it; I'm just not sure how I feel about the zoo. If you are making a trip to the Indy zoo, be sure to check out the dolphin dome. Standing in the dome, you look up into the dolphin tank. You can see the dolphins swimming by, and the light coming through the water creates an awesome effect. Very peaceful, except for the constant shushing. Shhhh, shhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

What's in a Name?

I'm at work and I just overheard two guys talking over my cube wall (cube is the hip thing to call a cubicle I guess, I didn't know that until I started working here). Anyway, they were talking about one of our clients who has a non-gender specific name, like Pat or Terry. I was half eavesdropping because I thought it was kind of funny, when one of them goes "I hate those bisexual names." Then there was kind of an awkward pause as both guys realized bisexual doesn't really describe the situation they were talking about, and then they both walked away in opposite dirrections. Ha ha ha.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Baby Chickens

I love spring/summer, when it is warm, but not sweltering, and there is a breeze. This weekend Brandon and I went to a show a The Phoenix Theatre in Indy. He took me there on a surprise date--I love surprise dates! So sweet. :) It was our first time there, and it is such a cool theatre. We definitely plan to go back. The show was called The Pillowman, which is an odd show, but good. Very dark. Prior to the show we strolled all around, and found the best store, Global Gifts. It is actually a non-profit organization that goes to impoverished areas of the world, buys crafts and goods made by the people living there, and sells them here. It is all fair trade, and very awesome.

Today I went into work at 7am to prep for a training session I had this morning. Since I went in early, I got to leave a lot earlier than I normally do. Hence, I am able to watch Family Feud, one of my favorite game shows. On the show today, one of the questions was "what do chickens do?" One person answers lay eggs, which was one of the top answers. The next person in their family to answer says that chickens lay baby chickens. You mean eggs? Ha ha ha.

In an unrelated story, everyone who lives around here should go to the World's Largest Water Balloon Fight. Come this Saturday, I'm totally there.

Friday, June 02, 2006

The Veg Menu




Ha, ha ha. I LOVE it when that happens. Right.

Check out this awesome website that a coworker told me about that has an international guide to vegetarian and veg-friendly restaurants. No more grilled cheese/iceberg lettuce salad/veggie side dish dinners. Whoo!

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Sicko

I heard about this story via another blog I read. I man in Oregan who ran over a dog multiple times, thus killing it, got 90 days in jail for animal abuse and has been ordered to pay the family $56,400. If you accidentally hit and injure or kill a dog that runs out in the street, that is sad for everyone. But if you are a deranged sicko who runs over a dog multiple times and drives away without stopping when the family comes to the scene, you deserve to pay a hefty sum, and deserve more than 90 days in jail in my opinion. Anybody did something cruel like that to my babies would see my RAGE! I would be taking that sucker to court and persecuting them in every way possible. I hope that the family gets some comfort from the court decision, and the support of people like me who sympathize with them. Animal abuse. How do people do it?! There is something seriously wrong with people like that. The guy should be ordered to get psychiatric help.
If animal abuse makes you, like me, want to puke, check out the ASPCA link to the right--such a great organization. There are lots of ways to get involved in the prevention of animal abuse, support animal friendly laws, reduce the stray population, etc.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Hot Hot Hot

Sunday I went to the Indy 500 for the first time. It just seems like the kind of thing you should do when you live here. I went with some folks from work, and it was so fun, but it was so hot, in the 90s and humid. We got to the race about 8:30am, found a nice patch of grass where we could sweat and drink beer, chatted, laughed at the marching bands and the drunk people all around, enjoyed all the pre-race festivities. At 1pm the race started--we ran up to the fence, clinging onto the chain link as we watch the cars make there first few laps. This is all fun. After the first few laps however the cars become a whirring blur. The sun and the humidity and the beer have turned my mind into mush, so I sit on the blanket in a complete daze, reapplying sunscreen every 5 minutes. So fun though!! Even though we didn't stay till the end.

In other news, I have decided that reading my blog is boring to me, and probably to most anyone else who reads it. I like writing it, but re-reading my posts is horrible! Not funny and entertaining and interesting like the other blogs I read. So it is time for blog makeover!!! No more recounting the specific details of my everyday life..."So I went to the grocery store to buy bread; I couldn't decide between the whole grain bread and the multi grain bread..." Blah! Instead this blog is now reserved for the funny, important, and meaningful events of my life, with perhaps more commentary on things in the news, movies I watched, books I read, etc. At the same time I hope to keep the "realness" that Brandon says my blog has--a real compliment. I don't know how good a job I'm doing with this post, but hopefully there will be a slight improvement.

So, what do all the other super hip blogs have? A cool name! Any suggestions for a cool blog name? I'm guessing I have 4 readers max, so the competition is stiff! Leave a comment with you blog name suggestions and you might have the honor of re-naming my blog.

Friday, May 26, 2006

Trips

So, the trips I mentioned before...seeing my family on Mothers Day weekend was fun. The girls went into the city on Saturday--Chicago is so awesome and wonderful. We saw Wicked. I liked it a lot. I like the story and the music, and I thought the effects were really cool for some of the scenes. I think that you can tell it is adapted from a book though--some of the character development happens really fast, for no apparent reason, like they had to cut stuff out. I haven't read the book, so I'm not sure how similar they are.

Washington DC was very cool too. It's one of the first places that I've gone for work where there is actually a lot of stuff to do. I didn't stay in the city; I was at a hotel in Old Town Alexandria, which is a very cool place. In Alexandria there are lots of shops, restaurants, etc. It is a good place to just walk around. In DC I get to see/do some of the usual tourist stuff; tourist stuff, but still interesting: White House; Peace Rally with singing and dancing; Washington Monument; WWII Memorial; Korean War Memorial; Lincoln Memorial. Traveling for work is like taking a vacation preview. Somebody else pays for you to go to some other location, and you get to decide if it is worth paying to go back there when you're not working. I would go back to DC, Old Town Alexandria for sure.

By the way, sorry about my last ranting type post. It was one of those days where you just feel like crying or throwing up because you are so stressed out. I am feeling somewhat better about work now.

Monday, May 22, 2006

Break

Last weekend I went to see my family and had a very fun time visiting with them and going into Chicago to see Wicked. Then last week I had a training in Washington DC. Fun time walking around and seeing tourist stuff after training. Spent the weekend hanging out, volunteering a little for Habitat for Humanity; decided last minute not to go with Brandon to Fort Wayne/Warsaw to visit his family because I have hardly been home. Not being home and being busy is also why I haven't posted in a while. Trips home and to DC were cool--posts on them will be coming, but right now I need to take a break from work and vent because I honestly feel like freaking out.

This morning I get into work to the pile of email that has accumulated while I was out. I quickly answer the ones that need attention and spend a stressful few hours preparing to train a new solution for the first time this week. For some reason I have scheduled myself to train for the first time on two different solutions this week and it has me feeling a bit panicked. Later in the afternoon I check our team page for Relay for Life. I am team captain. I see that not one other person has signed up for the team, and I feel like a failure at rallying the company to participate. This afternoon I had a meeting with other people who have so, so nicely volunteered to help me get the team together. I am grateful for their help, but feel like an idiot that I couldn't get even one person to sign up on my own--worry that I look like I just volunteer so that I look good, without actually accomplishing anything. After the meeting I think more about my bad survey from before. It has been bothering me all day--I sent out new training surveys today--first time since the bad one. I decide to check and see if more surveys have come in from that session where I got the bad survey. Yes, more have come in. They are mediocre at best. I feel like I'm a bad trainer, like I don't know how to do my job. I worry that before people just lied and gave me good surveys because they were handing the surveys back into me--maybe now that we use email surveys people will be brave enough to tell the truth and reveal that I really don't do my job well. Please, please let these new surveys come back with good results. This especially makes me stressed out because my one year review is coming up and I don't want all these negative things happening when I go in for my review. On top of that I feel extremely forgetful lately--while visiting my family, I accidentally left my purse in my grandparents car and didn't remember it until they had left for their house--two hours away in Wisconsin. My mom had my birth certificate and a photocopy of my passport which I used to board the plane home. This weekend, after having my purse shipped back to me, I accidentally left it in Target. Luckily I remembered shortly after we had left the store. I also forgot to do a small but important detail while registering a client for training the other day. A co-worker caught my mistake, which would have lost some money for my department if it had not been corrected. I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel like a horrible, horrible failure at everything.

I would love to go home now and get in bed and cry, but I have arranged so that I don't have a ride home until 7--forcing myself to work late today to prevent more stress later this week. Brandon and I are working out together tonite--finally starting on the regular exercise routine I have been trying to get into for months--feels like one of the very few good things that is happening right now. OK, visualize the positive. This week I will start exercising and feel good; Brandon will have more interviews at good companies, not lame ones like his last two; I will get back good surveys from last week's training; I will have successful training sessions this week; people will sign up for Relay for Life; I will get done with everything that needs to be done; EVERYTHING'S GOING TO BE OK.

Friday, May 12, 2006

Weird!!

I love reading blogs. They're crazy. Like for some reason a bunch of people, including me, decided to start putting stuff that would normally be private out on the internet where anyone can look at it.

Anyway, given my love of reading blogs, I have several that I check daily. I don't know all (most) of the people who's blogs I read. You know, it's interesting to peer into the life of a stranger. Like a movie, but it's real!

So today I was doing my usual blog check, and I go to one I recently started reading, and I see there is a new post. I think, cool, a new post to read. And then I read the post and I think it's about me! This person has setup her blog so she can track who visits (something I want to do but haven't yet), and she wants to know who is the person from Indianapolis who is reading her blog! Such a strange feeling; like I've been caught. But really, it's not like I'm doing something wrong. I mean, after all, we are putting our "journals" out here on the internet where anyone can read them. It's just kind of a funny feeling to unexpectedly find yourself the topic of a stranger's blog post. Anyway, I made a comment and I wonder if she'll read this now.

I wonder, are there any strangers out there reading my blog?

Thursday, May 11, 2006

Bad News

1. Brandon didn't get the job that he had three interviews for; the one that he was really excited about. He is pretty bummed out, but he is still applying and hopefully more interviews will come up soon. The lame thing is, that instead of calling him and telling him the news like they said they would, and even though none of their prior correspondence had been thru email, they emailed him a form letter to tell him that he didn't get the job--not very cool of their HR department. If that's the way they are, maybe it's for the best anyway.

2. I got my first bad survey at work. After each training session, we have the attendees fill out surveys. They used to be on paper, and we recently switched over to email surveys. Got back one of the email surveys from my last session, and I had gotten horrible scores! 1s are the best and 5s are the worst. Normally I get mostly 1s and 2s, occasionally 3s. I had never gotten anything worse than that. Until now. 4s and 5s! So I had to talk to my boss about is and I was all upset and worried. My boss is so cool though. I haven't gotten bad surveys before, and she knows that this is bound to happen from time to time. She made me feel a lot better about it, and we talked about ways to avoid these kind of results. It's really not a big deal as long as it doesn't keep happening, and I'm sure it won't. I just feel kind of in a funk because of it though. It was the very first thing that I saw when I came into work this morning. :(

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

No Way

Can't believe this works...

Go to www.google.com, type in failure, and hit the "I'm Feeling Lucky" search button.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

Cinco de Mayo

On Friday I had my Cinco de Mayo party with Karen and Brandon D from work. It was pretty fun. Good mix of work people, neighbors, and other friends. My friends Christina and Evan came up from Bloomington and Brandon's sister Brittani came from Muncie. :) My cousin Susie who lives in Indy also came with her boyfriend and a friend--we keep trying to get together and we finally did. Lots of other cool people too--fun stuff. The taco bar we setup was a big success; definitely plenty of food and drinks, and good times!
Everyone got along really well, considering that most people didn't know each other before the party. There was one drunken political argument (to be expected), and one of Brandon's co-workers that we invited not knowing she was under 21 freaked out when the cops came (annoying), but other than that everyone was pretty cool with each other. Brandon my boyfriend and Brandon from work finally met each other--Brandon Squared!
Something funny and embarrasing: Toward the beginning of the party, a group of people walked up the driveway while I was in the garage. I went out to greet them. Karen invited some of her friends that I didn't know, and since I didn't know these people I said "Hi, you must be Karen's friends!" I later found that it seemed like I assumed they were Karen's friends because they are Asian and Karen is Asian. Luckily we all laughed about it and I got to explain that that was not what I meant!
Something else funny and embarassing: At one point in the night I ran around the house announcing that it was time for the pinata. When I finally got everyone out in the garage, the pinata that I had been so excited about was busted with two swings of the bat. And the candy didn't even fall out. The body just seperated from the head and fell to the ground--I had to shake it around so that the candy flew all over--awesome!
Yes, the cops did come, as I mentioned earlier. I was expecting it. One of my neighbors really likes to call the cops on parties, and I'm pretty sure she's the one who called on us. The first time one cop came over; he was pretty cool and just told us to keep it down. The second time the cops came though, three of them came in three seperate squad cars, which they used to block the whole street so that no renegade partygoers could jump in their getaway cars and drive away. One of them told me that if he had to come out a third time, he was going to charge us with disorderly conduct and arrest us and take us to jail. In my head I was thinking that I was pretty sure the worst they could do was give me a noise ticket, since we were all at my house and not out in the street. I was only thinking this, but Susie's boyfriend Cory is the type who likes to say these things out loud--he says, "What are you going to arrest us for? You can't arrest us!" It was kind of funny. Then he looks at the pinata giraffe head that is still hanging by a rope from the balcony and the mixture of pinata candy, bottle caps, and cigarette butts on the driveway and asks me if I'm going to clean that up because it's not very nice for my neighbors--this I thought was really funny since there was only enough trash on my property to be unsightly and not illegal, and that falls more into the realm of the Homeowners Association.
Looking back, I really could've gotten in trouble because a couple minors were there. But at the time the cops came and I was outside, I didn't know that that one girl was under 21 and also being really drunk and stupid. I was just thinking of Britt who either wasn't drinking or was not drinking a lot, and sitting calmly in the house, so I wasn't worried about it.
Next day was spent cleaning and relaxing. Especially relaxing since we didn't go to bed until 6am. It actually wasn't too bad--Cory had picked up a lot of cups and other stuff before leaving, and Paul helped me clean the garage and driveway. I have good friends. I was so surprised when I went to clean the kitchen and found that even though people had been drinking margaritas all night, so many people brought over tequila I actually had more of it after the party than I did before! Thanks friends for your generous contributions to my liquor cabinet! Thanks to everyone who came and celebrated our fiesta--come over again and we'll get rid of that left over tequila!