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Monday, September 18, 2006

The Breakup

I'm sorry I haven't blogged in awhile. It has come from a combination of being busy and a little sad. Last Sunday Brandon and I broke up. We had been together for almost 3 1/2 years, and though we still love and care about each other, we were really more like best friends than boyfriend and girlfriend. There are a million details about the relationship and breakup that I could analyze here, but I'm not really interested in doing that. The main things is, you can be really compatible with someone as friends, and love them, and want to spend almost all of your time with them, but that doesn't mean you should be their girlfriend. I can't really explain what happened, but we both know that this if for the best. Eventually, we'll both be happier. We're still hanging out and talking on the phone, though obviously not as much. It's awkward and sad and frustrating sometimes, but all in all good to be hanging out just as friends.
It is weird when you breakup, because you want to tell people, but you don't want to announce it. It is kind of awkward. So, I told my mom and a few friends and co-workers, and I mention it if it comes up in conversation, and I figure that is enough to have it spread to other people. Everyone loves gossip!
I have been hoping, in this turning point, that I will really get a grip on life, finally get organized and feel on top of it. I mean, I always get my stuff done, and usually fairly well, but usually with undo stress caused by a combination of procrastination and overly high expectations. I want to avoid most of that stuff now, if possible. But so far, it hasn't happened. If anything, things are in more disarray than ever. But that is to be expected in the first week after the end of a major relationship. And my new addiction to Kakuro (possibly even better than Su Doku) is doing nothing to help. Nor the sore throat I have suddenly developed. But, I have made a comprehensive to-do list, which all list-makers know is the first step to enacting any plan. Now that that all-important step is out of the way, I am certain that I can start being happier, having less stress, getting enough sleep, exercising more, eathing healthier, and being more productive. Right.


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